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Thursday, October 29, 2009

Mixed feelings..

I don noe why i'm feeling this way.. I'm feeling soooo insecure... to say that i don trust him...hmm.. i do actualli.. but i sometimes feel like he's up to no good.. out of nowhere.. This feelings really making me mad.. I'm having a headache rite now just thinking and thinking of this.. i don noe why i feel so suspicious of him.. whereas a part of me noe that he's loyal to me.. this part of me noes that he didn't do anything at all.. it's been a long time since i've talked to him on the phone for a long period of time..
Since my prepaid is low now..and his is too.. i just feel so damn insecure.. knape ni... i hate feeling this way really.. i don wan to feel this way.. but i can't help it!.. ish.. help me pls.. my head really hurts..
Bcoz of this feelings.. i always makes him mad with my interrogations.. yup.. really.. he said i was like a police officer asking him all this stupid questions.. I think all the questions that i really wanted to ask him did not surfaced.. yes its all settled actualli.. but theres still this few questions thats still stuck in mind..
i think i've kept it too deep until i myself can't take it myself.. erghh!! pls la.. how can i get this headache to stop..
When i asked him to called.. (using a public phone of coz..since his ppd is low..) he did fulfilled it but i can't seem to get the mindset of him being disloyal to me out of my head.. ya ALLAH why is this.. urgh..
The thought of him being in the same place with his ex then.. really scarred me..really badly.. i can't seem to trust him the way i did before.. Really made me sick.. really.. i noe he loves me.. and i love him soooo much.. but i don't noe why the hell this feelings daunt me..
If i love him..shouldn't i trust him..? Shouldn't i be happy that all the questions that i had was answered..? well almost all the questions.. why la am i like this? Why can't i be direct and ask him the questions that i really kept in my mind..Why...?
Is it wrong to feel this way? is it wrong? Afterall he've had an even more serious relationship with her than me.. URGH!!!! i really wanna noe all this...shud i ask him.. i'm really scared that if i bring all this up again another fight will be brewed..
i'll probably find a way to settle all this.. just wanna get it all out of my system.. oh god pls pls pls.. dun let this suspicions be true.. i really don wan to lose him..

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at 7:50 PM.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hey..

i just got back from school.. school was boring with a capital B for me just now.. jad as usual la kan we took some pix.. dis time faz was with us.. yep.. she came to skool.. haha..

ok after skool..lina need to attend this talk and aisah was bz with her sc thing.. azura dun noe la where she went..she was absent just now.. so i went home with faz.. we boarded the bus.. my ez-link's credit has finished so i paid by cash..

I put in 55 cents in the cash box there.. den the uncle asks ' How much?" in a rude way plk tu.. i said '55 cents la..' in the same tone.. den he said..'where? u onie put 50 cents..' i looked inside..from my side of view kn,i can see the 5 cents terselit behind the 50 cents.. den i said ' there la behind the 50 cents..' u noe wat he replied.. 'where got..u onie put 50 cents la..' wah i was so embarassed there in front of the bus where all the ppl can see me.. with my fucked up face i put another 10 cents in the cash box and slide my eyes really sharply at the uncle.. hmmph.. buat malu org je..

i scolded the uncle at faz and she kept on laughing like hell until her cheekbones all hurt.. imagine that.. chibai.. i was soooo fed up with that uncle.. like i wan to ask his name and complain je!! eeee sot je...

haha..maseh geram ni.. pathetic eh.. psl 10 cents je nk mara.. haha..

so heres the pix i took at class..

i love my pix.. haha perasan eh..

Ape bdk gile tu buat je tau..haha..

Candid!!! The teacher saw us taking pix..haha.. Guess why i ternga-nga like tat.. i was holding the cam n i was saying 'Cepat laaaa' hahahaha...

p.s lag brape hari ni b?? cant wait cant wait cant wait sia.. Argh.. its making me mad actualli.. haha..

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Birthday Boy..

Yesterday wen i finished werk.. i went to lakeside to meet him..as usual.. after around a few mins just hanging around there.. His fren called and invite us to celebrate his berthday at arab street.. since its a last min thing.. we get to go shisha and just chill for a while.. i went with abu..Shukri (his fren) and her gerl widya..

It was fun although it was a last min thing..i'm too lazy to write.. so just let the pics tell the story aites..

Nnt tup3 da 1 tahun kite eh b.. i will be happy wen that day cums..wait for my surprise for u k dear.. i love u bodo..

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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I think something's good coming my way..

Ferst of all,i wanna tell u tat everything's ok with me n abu.. I told him everything.. Everything from my heart was poured out to him.. He does that all because he was scared that if he showed too much feelings to me,i would betray him.. i told him how much i loved him and now he understood really how i felt towards him.. Things between me n him have been different lately.. good different i mean.. We started laughing and joking with each other.. Its just like the same feeling that i had for him since the ferst time that i met him..

As for the ex.. i dun noe wat to do.. She keeps msging him.. out of the blue plk tu..n mostly on the time wen i'm usually with him.. That was why i usually accused him blindly.. Ok i trust him now since he clarified everything but we will see if he really told the truth or not.. I'm hoping on wit's end that he won't cause any problem for our relationship..

I love him too much but if he still hurt me again.. I will have to do something rite.. I will just need to be strong..

Ok just now skool was great.. We had classes as usual but wen it got bored we started taking pics.. After skool we went to Suntec City and Marina Square.. Just chilling out.. It was fun la.. Too bad faz was not with us.. But if she was it wud be COMPLETE... it wud be much more exciting.. After that i straightaway met up with him at lakeside and we talked.. we talk alot now.. Guess we really starting to open up with each other.. I just love him.. He was so cute just now.. I don't know how to describe..

k let the pix tell the story aite..