Sunday, February 21, 2010
One Tired Day
Just now i went to my old house at woodlands coz i had to follow my mother settle some unfinished business there... hahaha... about the selling of the house thingy laa... After the family came to see the house... we started to head to Causeway Point coz both of us was really starving but midway Mama yah called saying she'd like to meet us at Lot 1... Well wat to do... My mother wanted to so i just followed... heh...
We reached Lot 1 at about 5 plus and had our sapedek! hahahaha... i ate fish n chips and my mother had sirloin steak.... Guess where we ate?? Food court daaa... hahahah ya la... kite bukan kaye tau... haha... I followed these two makciks shop some slimming pills... hahahah that really cracks me up... Aniwae... my mother then cut her hair and when she finished, i didn't even realise she's done it... hahahaha no difference... pfft...
Mama Yah
On the way home... i msged my dad and he was like... umm him... the same laa... i didn't really noe whats his motive... he has the thing that me and my lil sis needed but he asked me to go ask my mom and my grandmother... tsk! Why not just give rite...?! Irritating sia he...
MamaEnough bout him... I wish i can find a superman that can fly me away in his arms and get me out of this freaking mess... i've really had enough of this shit... I lost my job bcoz of this... no mood for studying and all... why can't they solve their own problems? Fuck... i'm going crazy i think... Oh well...
Nobody knows what i'm going through... Being the eldest gives me the most responsibilty... standing by my mother and coping with my studies... and also pacifying my lil sis who's 7 in going through all of this... My 2nd sis... well i think she can cope... she's always with her boyfie... so i think she's okay... If u understand by now what i'm telling u guys... well yaaa... my mother and my father are filing for a divorce... Its not a big deal for me coz that's their life and i have no intentions to pry... shucks... i dont even care... But why do i cry silently so no one noes... portraying a smile here and there whenever ppl's looking... acting all happy around my loved ones... why do i have to be the strong one... i feel sadness too... really... why do i cry SILENTLY? When my father and mother discussed this with the whole family... Why was i the one NOT crying... ? And when they are all sober... i'm the one crying... Fuck... i'm really going crazy... The reality of life sucks sometimes... but just get up and face it... also not forgetting to pray to god that all of this will stir itself and somehow something or someone will make me hapie... Til den... Nite2...
at 11:10 PM.
